Fake it until you make it.

Another reason why I failed in the past.

Well I tried to fake it and for a while I did, but instead of then working to flesh out the inside and work to become it, I shrivelled halfway and expected some magical thing to happen and naturally fill up the empty shell.

No it doesn’t happen that way, you work your balls off to fill in the gaps.

Failed once, no matter.

Time to rise again.

The exact reason why I didn’t get good.

The small task, don’t fuck it up anymore now.

I still believe.

Build your dreams.

One brick at a time.

Saw this awesome video by this youtube film maker Devin Graham and it just reminded myself, I gotta keep working on my dreams.

Doesn’t matter that the past 8 years went by with little success.

I still got to be willing to take the shots that no one else is willing to fight for, every single day.

Still so many things I want to achieve.

Gotta keep working.

The difference between a rich man and a poor man, is that a poor man plans for the weekend, a rich man plans four years in advance.

Truth is, I almost gave up.

I almost accepted that I lost and that I’ll keep losing.

Then I decided I hated losing and I don’t want to lose anymore.

Time to start winning, the small battles first.

Wake up when the alarm rings at 5.45am.

Prepare the meals I need to be eating.

Get the work done promptly.

Start winning the small battles, prepare yourself for winning the war.

Let’s do it, you and me.

I believe in you, you believe in me.

The People’s Champion

We look a successful people and think: Why am I not luckier or more talented?

Well, behind a successful man there usually is a story of failure and defeat. Because if you haven’t hit rock bottom, you wouldn’t know how to come up and fight your way to the top.

The transition happens just like that ‘click’.

Random shirt I got from a long time ago.

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true. – Leon-Joseph Cardinal Suenens 

Choose to be happy.

I know, it’s a lot harder than it seems sometimes.

After being back here in Singapore for almost 6 months, I must say a large part of it was spend in the dark, moody and depressed states.

Coming to terms with reality is always a harsh experience.

But through that experience, there’s always a silver lining.

The moment where you become fully honest with yourself and your surroundings, and the subsequent decision to then act to turn things around to where you want your life to be.

It’s not easy by any means, but it’s possible and that’s all we need.

Doing decathlon back here in Singapore has been a huge struggle with work commitments and limitations to training facilities (and the weather). But I realised that I’ve always tried to get the work aspects of my life right, and indeed I have actually made big progress towards that in the last 6 months.

Yes it came at an expense of other areas in my life, but such is the price you must be prepared to pay to get to where you want to be.

So stay the course, have faith and most of all, enjoy the ride.

You become what you do everyday.

What are you waiting for?

Bruce Lee. Picture from runningonmylastleg.wordpress.com

To be honest with yourself, that is something really difficult to do. – Bruce Lee.

I just got reminded of his words watching the very inspirational interview by Nicholas Tse on leadership.

Somehow the interview really struck me, maybe it’s because I am also in a unique position of trying to lead my father’s company.

Then I realise, I’m not being completely honest with myself.

I keep using that as an excuse to skip a training session, to miss another workout.

It’s not what I truly love the most.

And as a result at work I’m not exactly being the best that I can be as well.

I already know what I want.

I still want to run.

I still want to be a great decathlete.

I know I’m still very far away, but at the same time my potential is yet to be fulfilled.

Time to be honest with myself.

7am at the track tomorrow, training with James Wong who’s making a come back for this year’s SEA games.

The lie stops here.

The life starts now.

The stopwatch doesn’t lie.

Being realistic is the most commonly travelled road to mediocrity. – Will Smith

Or is it?

Well I have been fairly unrealistic with my expectations of life thus far, sometimes I’ve been proven right by reality, other times wrong.

But what I realised is that I overestimate my capabilities for today, end up over-reaching and not making the best out of the day constantly.

For example I would go to the track thinking I will run my 8x200m session with a pace that I should have been targeting at for this time of the year if I had trained according to schedule.

But I have not.

And by the 4th rep I’m horribly off pace, demoralised and utterly exhausted, wasting the session instead.

So I tried a different tactic last week, this time I under-estimated myself and deliberately set a very slow time, gradually running faster when my body allows me to.

I completed the session and felt that I’ve gotten the best out of the session.

I then came to a conclusion, the whole concept of being realistic, is relative to time.

You have to be realistic with what is going on right now, and accept that what you see today are the very real circumstances and limitations that you have to deal with right now.

But that does not have to be the reality of tomorrow.

In fact, you can be completely unrealistic about tomorrow, because the truth is: anything is possible.

You work with what you have to the best of your abilities today, then yourself up to achieve the amazing in the future.

Gotta get to work.