One year later, Krabi.

Back in Krabi after nearly a year.

Back in Krabi after nearly a year, feels like I’m in a much better place on somehow.

I am learning to understand rather than immediately judge or to be judged. I cannot blindly follow the crowd and accept their approach. I will not allow myself to indulge in the usual manipulating game of role creation. Fortunately for me, my self-knowledge has transcended that and I have come to understand that life is best to be lived and not to be conceptualized. I am happy because I am growing daily and I am honestly not knowing where the limit lies. To be certain, every day there can be a revelation or a new discovery. I treasure the memory of the past misfortunes. It has added more to my bank of fortitude. – Bruce Lee

It’s funny how I’ve come across this quote from Bruce Lee for many many years yet I’ve only started to truly understand the meaning behind it.

Almost a year since I’ve been to Krabi, and what a year. It wasn’t easy, going through my blog and journal entries through the year was actually quite an uncomfortable and painful experience for myself even now. But I’m glad that I’ve been honest about it and tried to reflect upon it as honestly as I could.

The year was riddled with ups and downs, but in a large sense there was a slow and steady build up of momentum. Even through the down times, I knew I was going through it to come out the other side better.

The biggest breakthroughs were those in the mind.

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance taught me that it’s ok to be stuck and stay stuck, because that is in itself a process of becoming unstuck. Often the solution to the problems we haven’t solved are outside the realms of our experience, hence the only way is to embrace being on the edge staring out into the unknown, because that’s where the answer lie.

Be Here Now taught me to be here now. Be in the difficult and painful situations, acknowledge it instead of trying to run away. Then actually take the steps to deal with it. Too often our minds forward project or fall back into the past and apply what they call hyperbolic time discounts on things that we ought to be doing today, thus procrastinating and never getting to where we want to go. It’s funny when you realise that, you realise that all you need to do to change your life is to change one day, and that day is today.

I am super thankful and grateful for the lessons that the year has taught me, I guess like what Bruce Lee said, I treasure the memory of my past misfortunes. It has added more to my bank of fortitude.

And from here on out, I feel a sense of calm in a sea of uncertainty and opportunity. I guess it comes from the confidence and competence that I’ve learnt and sailed through troubled waters.

To be here a year out and to be looking ahead and focusing on what’s possible, I have to thank my lucky stars for it.

Focus on what's possible.

Focus on what’s possible.

And being back competing in the local athletics scene, what a blessing as well.

Final meeting Natalie, a young athlete who followed me through the years on social media, seeing her grow up into a great person with winning ways. Maybe I have a small part to play in it, and if it is the case then all the work through the years would have been more than worth it to me. What I didn’t tell her was that somehow actually she’s also a reason why I’m still on the track, because I can’t let her down by not finishing the race can I?

Also got to know a few more younger athletes in the local scene, I am grateful that I am able to share my experiences and stories with them. Hopefully they can learn from my mistakes and go further in life than what I managed.

So I’ll leave you with this music video from Avicii, which just about perfectly sums up my emotions and the message I am trying to share with you.

He said, “One day you’ll leave this world behind, so live a life that you will remember. My father told me when I was just a child, these are the nights that never die.”

Dream big, be strong, be brave, always pick yourself up after you fall, never give up.

Comments

  1. Hey Yong Sheng!
    This is Natalie! Well I did also find your blog a few years back along with your twitter because I was trying to find out about decathlons then. Haha! And now I’ve got a wordpress of my own. 🙂 Anyway, this is incredibly late but it’s better late than never and I thought you ought to know how much you’ve done for me! Through the years there was a lot of questioning whether or not I really had the passion but I kept finding myself coming back for more, although there were certainly times I wanted to quit for good. You saved me from that. 🙂 Particularly in 2011 and 2013 when I decided to apply for a DSA. I remember asking you for advice on twitter in 2011 and I still have the screenshots of what you told me, because everytime I felt like throwing in the towel, I would read them and understand what it means to work hard and find the beauty in the sport. So yes, thank you for that because I can safely say that even though I’m done with nationals, track will always be a part of my life. 🙂 Anyway, this year was certainly eventful for you and you’ve accomplished so much to be proud of! I’m honoured to have gotten to know a great athlete like you too through my (on hindsight) creepy ways but here’s a reminder to both of us to always outdo ourselves and never let the fire inside die! 🙂 All the best in your pursuits! 🙂

    • Yong Sheng says:

      Hi Natalie! Congrats on getting your own wordpress! Will look forwards to catching up on your adventures on your blog! I’ve been wanting to write a few articles on mine for quite a while now (as you might have noticed, quite a lot happened to me over this last year), but in wanting to get it right, i procrastinate and then more things happen and well.. haha.

      Anyway, it’s great to know that I may have helped you in the little ways I have. It’s great to finally see you in person this year as well. All the best for your A levels! Just remember in the grand scheme of things, it might mean less than what it feels like in the moment so just do you’re best and you’ll be fine!

      Long road ahead for you young lady, and I wish you all the best for it! Look forwards and hold on to your dreams! 😉

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