Because I met you.

This is probably the most difficult post to write and I guess putting it off any longer doesn’t make it any easier.

I’ve always thought I’d play this game like I had nothing to lose. But I guess as you grow up you realise whether you like it or not, you do.

You realise that your actions not only lead to consequences for yourself, if it was that’s easy, but it is those that are closest to you that ends up paying the most.

The trip to Spain and the small holiday in London after where I watched my first ever musical (Wicked, brilliant show) was great. And to share it with someone that used to be such a big part of my life was even better, well kinda.

At the same time it kicked up all these questions again: what have I done, and what I am doing?

I choose to let go of a perfectly good relationship to chase my dreams and I guess most people won’t understand why there was a need to, including her.

Sometimes this journey has cost me more than I can put into words and other times I think I should have keep to the tried and taken path, have a bit of stability in my life, but I guess I just have to keep going and find out what’s the ending of this journey like.

One last decathlon before I end this season.

I’m almost going home.

Who can say if i’ve been changed for the better
but, because i knew you
I have been changed for good.